suddenly everything just seems so bleak even though the whole christmas spirit is in the air and all that whole bullshit. well as what mich calls me scrooge mcduck. christmas will suck, new years will suck. michh is leaving for japan tmr and charm's leaving for aussie on mon. i have zero plans for christmas and new years and i dont even think i should head out and party.
charm's leaving for melb to study on the 15th of february, one day before my birthday. so i foresee my 19th birthday will be terrible too, ha crying my eyes out a day before my birthday.
really and today in the afternoon i caught the holiday on HBO, and after it was family stone (thank god there was no love actually i would have just killed myself) and when i got home today i distinctively remember telling myself i'll laugh if the holiday is on HBO again, and yes you got it right -- it was on again.
sorry guys i dont intend to kill your christmas spirits.. i just don't feel anything.
have a good one everyone